Feel

Hi im cornelia. Long time to write in here again. Ok first i'll wrote a little my story.

    Im so tired to continued this life again, cause i thing NOBODY'S can hear my story. My parents? HUH?!!!! they didn't care what i feel right now. They ALWAYS judge me and that's why im not believe them. I just have 3 closed friend, they name is Lena, Ditya, and Angel. They always beside me but i cant told them what i felt right now.. cause it's so hard to tell. I just can cry cry and crying again untill im tired to crying. In this world  i just had 2 special person in my life... but now i just had 1. He's died because cancer :'(. I JUST HAD ONE! and 1, we're cant met cause our distance.. :'( so.. im alone in the ZONK WORLD! Live in here like i lived in the hell! it's so hard for me but i always forgive them who always make me mad, always judge me, and always getting me HURT, everything! yeah! im tired to forgive them but i have no chooice!! i dont know what i have to do.. GOD PLEASE.... im so tired to live in here again.... CAN YOU STOPPED IT? Give me more people who always beside me, can hear my story, and have a time for me... EVERYTIME I NEEDED!!!! yeah i have bestfriend he's name is agung i knew him since childhood. He's always protect me like my brother but now he's leave me alone JUST BECAUSE his girlfriend dislike me :'( oh God! can i had 1 person who always beside me??????????????????? My parents always judge me and said "you wrong"!! But they didnt know who i am... i always wrong in they eyes!! WHAT ARE YOU FEEL IF YOUR PARENTS NEVER HEAR YOU??? NEVER BESIDE YOU??? THEY ALWAYS JUDGE YOU!! SCREAM ON YOUR FACE, EGOIST, and THEY ALWAYS THING THEY KNOW WHO I AM.. BUT THEY  W R O N G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!