Perbedaan Suka, Sayang, dan Cinta

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang, kau ingin memilikinya untuk keegoisanmu sendiri.
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang, kau ingin sekali membuatnya bahagia dan bukan untuk dirimu sendiri.
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang, kau akan melakukan apapun untuk kebahagiaannya walaupun kau harus mengorbankan jiwamu. 

Saat kau MENYUKAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya maka kau akan bertanya,"Bolehkah aku menciummu?"
Saat kau MENYAYANGI seseorang dan berada di sisinya maka kau akan bertanya,"Bolehkah aku memelukmu?"
Saat kau MENCINTAI seseorang dan berada di sisinya maka kau akan menggenggam erat tangannya... 

SUKA adalah saat ia menangis, kau akan berkata "Sudahlah, jangan menangis." 

SAYANGadalah saat ia menangis dan kau akan menangis bersamanya. 

CINTA adalah saat ia menangis dan kau akan membiarkannya menangis di pundakmu sambil berkata, "Mari kita selesaikan masalah ini bersama - sama." 

SUKA adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan berkata, "Ia sangat cantik dan menawan."

SAYANG adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan melihatnya dari hatimu dan bukan matamu.

CINTA adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan berkata, "Buatku dia adalah anugerah terindah yang pernah Tuhan berikan padaku.." 

Pada saat orang yang kau SUKAi menyakitimu, maka kau akan marah dan tak mau lagi bicara padanya.
Pada saat orang yang kau SAYANGi menyakitimu, engkau akan menangis untuknya.
Pada saat orang yang kau CINTAi menyakitimu, kau akan berkata, "Tak apa dia hanya tak tau apa yang dia lakukan." 

Pada saat kau SUKA padanya, kau akan MEMAKSANYA untuk menyukaimu.
Pada saat kau SAYANG padanya, kau akan MEMBIARKANNYA MEMILIH.
Pada saat kau CINTA padanya, kau akan selalu MENANTINYA dengan setia dan tulus... 

SUKA adalah kau akan menemaninya bila itu menguntungkan. 

SAYANG adalah kau akan menemaninya di saat dia membutuhkan. 

CINTA adalah kau akan menemaninya di saat bagaimana keadaanmu. 

SUKA adalah hal yang menuntut. 

SAYANG adalah hal memberi dan menerima. 

CINTA adalah hal yang memberi dengan rela.

It Ended Before It Happened(TRUE) - Sadie Bay

I was not a normal girl. I was different from other people. I dressed differently, was more developed,and had a different maturity level than most. But one day my friend Kayla and I decided to hangout at the local park(it was also a skate park). I was waiting for her to arrive when I notice 3 boys. They looked a couple of years older. I tried to ignore their staring eyes. I accidently dropped my phone out of my pocket when one of the boys walked up to me to return it. He politely tapped on my shoulder. I turned. It was the one with honey-blonde hair. His eyes were like the ocean. Deep and full of mystery. He grabbed my hand and I was speechless. He quickly let go after he set my phone in my palm. I then saw Kayla in the distance and ran to go talk to her.

I had 3 New contacts. Joe,Blake,and Isaac. About a week later I started to talk to the boys. Not hangout but text. Joe was The Blonde. Isaac Had the straight black hair, and Blake had the curly mess. We kept in touch but I mainly talked to Joe. One day Kayla and I were at her apartments, and we noticed Joe walk by. He lived close to her! So we then met his sister Courtney and we became instantly best friends. I was spending the night at her house when she and Kayla fell asleep. I then stepped out to get some fresh air. Joe was outside with his friends. I ignored them. I wasn't special just an "emo" girl. Joe came over to me and kissed me. Not on the cheek but on the lips. His friends left and it was just me and him. I then found out he had feelings for me. (I had been dating Isaac for about a month then broke up) I was excited because I had liked him since the first day we met. So we became a little bit intimate. we stayed up all night. together watching the sunrise. But it had to end. We went inside and acted like nothing had happened.

The very next day He called his girlfriend!! His GIRLFRIEND. He had a girl that was his. I didn't even know. He confronted me about it and said he was sorry. He didn't mean for that to happen. He was "drunk". I was so upset I went back to cutting. about 3 weeks later I went back to Courtney and Joes house to hangout with courtney. My sleeves were short so it couldnt hide the cuts. Joe didn't say anything but silently nodded to me when I walked through the door. His eyes got really big and stared at my arm. I gave him a fake smile. He stared and stared not saying anything. I still love him to this day but I have matured and realized I didn't have to have him. But that was a sad time in my life. But I have never got over it. Maybe its time to move on . It's 8 months later and I can feel myself letting go.

Dark Paradise

And there’s no remedy for memory your face is
Like a melody, it won’t leave my head
Your soul is haunting me and telling me
That everything is fine
But I wish I was dead
-Lana Del Rey <3

-- AND HOW ITS KILLING ME :/

— it’s hard when you don’t know what
causes your sadness ,
but it’s even harder when you know
what makes you happy
but you can’t do anything to have it :(

Quote

“
dear heart, please stop loving him
dear brain, please stop thinking of him
dear fingers, please don’t be tempted to text him
dear eyes, please refrain from crying
dear ears, please stop listening to your fave song
you’re killing me

”

story about him

DIA itu sahabat gue. pertamanya dia ngejauhin gue gatau kenapa tuh dia bener2 ngejauhhhh bener2 udah ga kenal siapa dia sebenernya.. sampe 1 bulan lamanya dia ngejauhin gue... cuma disini ada cewe yg kaya ngedeketin dia.. malahan bisa gantiin posisi gue OH NO!! gue jadi jijik sama dia, gamau deket2 sama tu cewe.... gue ga ngerti kenapa.. pasti kalo ada tu cewe dia tuh cepet banget bales mentionnya.. kalo di kelas dia tuh di jadiin nomer 1 deh yg paling di tanggepin.. jadi gue kan BENCI.. sahabat sendiri malah ngeboongin gue.. akhirnya gue tau dia kenapa... sumpah perasaan gue plong banget dan bener2 lega ternyata ada cewe yang dia suka... dan bener itu siapa.. cewe yg tadi sampe gue jijik sama dia.. ya walaupun agak sebel sama dia.. ya gue seneng aja bisa jadi gue yang dulu.. BEBAS